A good few weeks later, here’s a second blog post. I have to admit, it took me a while to figure out where I was planning to go from the last one, but I want to say thank you to everyone who had such amazing feedback and loving words. Mental health is extremely important to speak about, and I am happy I have the opportunity to speak about it to so many people at once through these posts.
These past few weeks, I’ve found my anxiety to be extremely prominent, which might be a reason as to why I hadn’t made a new post. My sleeping schedule has been insane from staying up all hours of the night worrying about and dwelling on the most ridiculous things. Everyday ‘challenges’ have become a bit more tedious for me to complete. For example, today I was on the sidewalk when a woman pushing a stroller started walking the same pace as me, right next to me. I knew I needed to be on the other side of her (my destination was on her side), and I immediately panicked. My brain kept telling me, “There’s no way you’re able to get to the other side of the sidewalk. None. No way, at all.” That sounds ridiculous, right? All I had to do was literally slow down and cross over to the other side.
This is how ridiculous anxiety can be, and how it can make the smallest situations seem like the biggest problems in the world. Anxiety is also something that constantly comes up with other mental illnesses, as well. If someone has depression, bipolar disorder, or even schizophrenia, it is likely they also have anxiety.
Anxiety has been the reason for a majority of my absence in group outings, appointments, and even one-on-one hangouts with friends. I become excited to do all of these things, then all of a sudden my brain decides its not happening. Someone’s anxiety can make them seem as if they are a “flake”, even when they want nothing more than to do what they originally had planned.
Anxiety can be provoked in silence, as well as too much talking. There is no middle ground for it, and a lot of times, there’s no justification for it showing up. I’ve had anxiety attacks in choir rehearsal from feeling overwhelmed by the number of people in the room. Panic attacks have come up sitting in business class, or eating lunch in the cafeteria.
Heck, my anxiety is kicking in just from writing this post.
A New York Times article by Robin Henig, says, “If you’re anxious, you find it difficult to talk yourself out of this foreboding; you become trapped in an endless loop of what-ifs.” (You can read the full article here: Understanding the Anxious Mind). It acts as a large wall that stands between you and your ultimate goal. You can’t climb over, you can’t go around, all you can do is sit and worry about how you’re going to be stuck on one side of that wall forever.
If you struggle with anxiety, you know the daily struggle and how loud it can be inside your head sometimes. If you are fortunate to not have to have that constant sense of dread around you, then please try and give time to those who worry that they don’t have it.
If you are looking for some nice anxiety coping mechanisms or how to help someone else ease their anxiety, here are a few I found/use:
Spread love, spread resources.